Happy Valentine's Day

So I cheated a little today.  Cheese and ice cream, I am craving dairy something fierce.  It doesn't help that it's Valentine's day & I get to talk to my husband over Skype.  But I'm back on track.  I didn't gorge myself or anything drastic, just a small slice of cheese & 3 teaspoons of ice cream.  But I'm not getting too down on myself, usually I would be completely irate with myself, look in the mirror at every inch and roll with absolute disgust.  But I'm learning to be kinder to me, I deserve it.  Wow, that was actually hard to say, harder to write.  I deserve a little kindness!  I'm not entirely sure where the notion came from, this idea that I'm not worthy, I have my suspicions, but that's another blog.  But its there, always, in the back of my head, this voice telling me that I deserve this body I have, that I deserve to be unhappy.  I'm learning not to trust this voice, not to listen to it jeering at me.  Its hard.  It would be easier to just keep on going the way I am.  But this voice LIES.  I do deserve better!  I'm not worthless!  I can be happy!  I will silence this voice someday, for now I'll drown it out by crunching some mini carrots.